Time

Running through my head is the lyrics of a Bangles song,Hazy shade of winter, or somthing like that. if you know the song as you read the post you will understand.
I'm not really sure how to explain what i'm feeling except to say i'm a 35 year old father. I have two daughters, one son, and one step son. I also think about, quite often, three "ex" step children. I was married once before i met my Queen.
I enjoy the memories of growing up in a small town in northern Iowa. The woods, the lakes, the critters, the little bit of trouble, ha ha!
Right this moment I'm trying to figure where time went.
My first child will be 18 soon. how the hell did that happen?!
Believe it or not I just found out my 5 year old son is becoming quite good at writing his name. On the mirror in my head board.
I dont know my middle child, but miss her terribly. I have watched her grow through pictures over the last few years thanks to the relationship between her mother and my wife. I havent seen her since before she was two, she'll be 13 in august.
Back to my eldest, we have been through so much in the last ten years it somtimes makes my head spin. Ilove her and am sooooo soooooo proud of her.
i have recently had the opertunity to become reaquainted with two of the three step kids. i was so excited i had a brain fart. i couldnt think of anything to say. that'll work itself out.
My step son, who is a huge pain in my ass, but also one of my favorite children, is a real challenge. One of the smartest kids i ever met, and at the same time, almost retarded. for now im blaming it on puberty. he was such a sweet kid a couple years ago. where did that go?

And the point of this whole thing is where the hell did the time go?! Yesterday I was in high school, flirting and skippin class!!
Now im thinking of a differant song, country this time. Dont blink. dont know who sings that one, but i think hes right.
I'm gonna try not blinking for a bit.

Un-Father's Day????

So my sister read part of my Fathers day post.
What the FUCK!!??!
She didnt even finish reading cuz she dont like our Dad. OK, so you don't feel the same as I do. I don't think it's fair to take that out on my blog. Keep in mind that she probably read it on my facebook notes but still, I think it was rude to not finish. Alright, that's a little selfish, but bear with me.
While chatting she told me our Father was nothing,a member of the deadbeat Dad's society.
I could be wrong, but I honestly think she's just being a little needy. I miss my Dad more than I could ever hope to convey with this cyber stuff. At the same time, I understand wanting to be left alone to do my own thing the way I want to do it.
Perhaps I have an unfair advantage over my sister. I live 500+ miles from my family. Maybe the six years of seperation has given me some insight to the old man's desire to be left alone.
Yeah, I get it.
I love my baby sister. She has been my best friend most of my life. I wish she could see Dad the way I do. Not the glorified "baddass " that I wrote about last time, but the man, the person. Who he really is. The "cupcake" that he swears he is not, but some of us know he truly is.
I love my Dad and I love my sister. So really, can't we all just get along?

fishing 2

I want to apologize for the lack of promised picture. The guy that took the picture is kind of a goober. he said he sent it to my email but i never got it.
So anyway, what happened was my other buddy that was fishing with us took the bass i caught and used it for a beer coozy. Put his beer in the fishes mouth and tipped him up for a good long drink.
My story doesnt do the picture justice. Like they say "a picture is worth a thousand words ".
I do have to say though, ya shoulda been there.

Happy Fathers Day!!!!

I just want to say Happy Fathers Day to the two most important father figures in my life.
My Dad, of course.Rick. And my stepdad,Mike.
Because of these two men, I am who I am today. I am just as ornery as I always was,just not as stupid. I'm strong, independant, smart,( a little anyway ), honest, and hard working. All traits that come from both my Dads.
Some people might think of that stupid tv show, " My Two Dads", but its nothing like that. My parents were divorced when I was a kid. Some time later, my Mom married this guy named Mike.
What I knew of my Dad at the time was that he was some kind of Baddass that nobody wanted to fuck with. Cool right? I thought so. To be perfectly honest, I still do, my Dad was one of the toughest sonofabitches to ever run the Lakes area. In my time I knocked a few heads, and kicked a few asses, but don't quite measure up to my old man. He is a legend. Even today I try to live up to his name. I dont back down from anyone or anything, stand strong, and hold my ground no matter what. Someday I hope to be as strong as him.
Toughness aside, my Dad taught me so much about the outdoors, which I love as much as anything. I know I could go to just about any lake anywhere and catch walleye, perch or bullhead. Unfortunately he never taught me the secret to catching monster catfish so I had to figure that one out myself. I just hope I'm there when he finally lands "Walter". I think thats what he called him. It was this great big catfish he would get to shore and then lose. Like the one on "Grumpy Old Men". I saw him one time but heard about him at least a hundred.
My Dad also taught me some about trapping, and other things concerning critters. I could go on and on, but thats not the point.
My Dad is a simple man. Tough as nails, sharp as a tack, and sweet as pie,(when he wants to be). I'm proud to be able to say that I am who I am cuz of him. Thanks Dad, I love you.
Then theres my Pa.He's my stepdad.This guy came into my life full force when I was 14 years old. He married my Mom.I spent alot of time resenting, distrusting, and really not liking him for no reason, other than he was'nt my Dad. I know now that was'nt fair, but at the time I was a stupid teenager already trying to live up to my old mans reputation. Sorry Pa.
This guy taught me patience, and compassion. God only knows how, but he made it through me and my brother and sister trying to drive him away. Imagine three teenagers pushing your buttons on a daily basis just to get you to leave. I'm thinking this guy is as tough as my Dad.
My Pa also taught me to be strong. In almost the opposit way as Dad. He showed me that sometimes its better not to fight, even though you want to. He has proven to me after all these years that patience really is a virtue. Oh and by the way, he's also the smartest guy I know. Freakin genious! That's no joke. If it's broke he can fix it, dont matter what it is. He taught me more than half of what I know about cars. He's the one who showed me that most times things are more simple than we think. Slowing down and taking a better look makes a huge differance.
Thanks Pa, I love you.

So Happy Fathers Day to my Dads. I love you guys.

Freakin wierd!!

Apperantly I'm wierd.At least my wife thinks so.
I should start with my wife. She is my Queen.The center of my universe.The rock that keeps me anchored, and apperantly, my muse.
After a conversation last night, I feel the need to ask,am I wierd?
We were talking about infidelity. It almost seemed that she had a problem with the amount of trust I have in her. Is trusting your soulmate wierd? I dont think so. She tells me I'm a better person than her cuz I trust her so much. Again, I dont think so.
I dont think I'm a bad guy, I just dont think I'm as good as she makes me out to be.
In my eyes, I do what I should do every day. I listen, to the best of my abilities, to everything she has to say. I show interest when its genuine. I care about how she feels. I try to do little things to suprise her just to make her smile. I love her smile. I have sex with her as often as i am able. Still not as often as she would like. Sorry Babe!
I could go on but I dont see the point. I dont think I'm doin anything special. Just my husbandly duties.
I love my wife and everything she does for me and our family. All I want to do is show her that and give her somthing in return.
So am I wierd?

fishin'

so i went fishing yesterday.
it started out three guys fishin on a marina dock at Lake of the Ozarks. it turned out to be alot of fun.
i brought along a couple pop up noodles, for juggin.when we finally caught somthing to use for bait i rigged up the first one and threw it out, tied it to the dock, and went back to fishing for bait.
picture this, im using a 5 foot ultra light crappie pole. with 4 pound test line and a tiny jig trying to catch small bluegill for bait.
i caught a couple, threw them in the bucket,and continued fishing.thinking i had got caught in the rocks i jerked and set the hook on a real nice,3 to 31/2 pound large mouth bass.
awesome!!! as soon as my fishin buddy sends me the pic ill post it.you,ll be either amused or disgusted at what happened next,but you,ll have to waite for the pic.i thought it was funny as hell.picture a 3 pound beer coozy that wants your beer as bad as you do.
we went on to catch one real nice blue cat and one small one on the noodles,drank some beer and had a good time fishin and hangin out.
id go on about the fishin and details about each fish but im afraid y'all would get bored.my wife does.
so till next time...
...happy fishin and safe drinkin.